Stayed to long

I loved you so much yet,I stayed to long.
I didn't know when enough was enough,
Words of blame thrown around like Small daggers, small cuts that
eventually become open wounds and never healed.
I stayed to long..... I wanted the dream of us no matter what the consequences to
my heart, my soul, my sanity and your happiness.
You were a drug that stopped the loneliness, that made me feel whole...full.

I stayed to long, even when I knew you couldn't give me what I wanted
I was drawn to your eyes, your lips and the promise of love ever after
The love making.....was......a place of dreams and rainbows and sweet fairies...
of peace and calm.....
I lived for those times but

I stayed to long...
Those moments never had legs that could walk
in this world, the real world.
I was devastated, I am devastated by that knowledge.
Why couldn't it have been...?

I stayed to long...waiting for something to change...waiting for that connection
to become stronger maybe? Each of us wanting the other to what?
Give in, give up....give?

I stayed to long and now.....we no longer connect.
We no longer can talk to each other without pain and hurt and disappointment.
I stayed to long and now.....

the love is replaced by bitterness of a dream lost.