Aloneness

Alone too much in my bubble.
Memories of the past keep me safe, stagnate.
Not fear that holds me here. Complacency, unmotivated to move forward.
Why am I so settled here? I am bored and restless...have I lied to myself? Maybe it is fear?
I know not what to do.

Trapped in my memories, not realizing till now, it is me that has controlled this course.
Need to let go of the past...need new and exciting adventures.
Plagued by self doubt.

I feel very alone today. Need to set a new course or I will die here.

In my loneliness I have created an imaginary life that will never exist.
I do know that. I guess I have always known that.

I do want more for myself. Can't just be happy in my bubble.

My spirit needs more...needs love...needs a passion...needs....

I have isolated myself from everyone, controlled when I see my friends...
when I socialize...when I live.
Live?...I don't live...I exist.

The mirror is very big and sharp today and I see my reflection very clearly.
I stand alone staring at what I have become.