Finally

So the finally decision has been made. June 1st is our move out date and there is no indecision. I feel the resolve from both of us and a sense of relief. The hurt, pain regret will probably come later once we have moved away from each other but we both know that no matter what, its the right decision. Too much history, disappointment and just plain enough...I need a life. Not sure at this point what that means but it has to better than this misery and stress we are both feeling.My unhappiness has made me even fatter. I need to get control of myself...my life. No more excuses. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping to get through the next couple of months with as little angst and discomfort as possible.Neither one of us ever intend to hurt the other but it happens and often.

I know now that all my optimism, all my love and all my passion was never going to change anything. I'm not going to over think or over feel this. I feel pretty resolved at the moment and I know Trish is feeling the same way. We tried really hard to make it work. For once, there will be no more blame for why...its pointless. We loved each other. We fought for that love and hopefully, we can salvage something but first, we need to move away from each other for awhile.