I'm Sorry

https://youtu.be/YQHsXMglC9A

Ghosts

Asleep in my bed caught in between awake and asleep,

a mist moves slowly in through my window and swirls around my head.

Memories are awoken and I can smell you so close...I can touch you.

I feel lips on mine ever so gentle and eyes that I remember from long ago,

pierce mine.

Your body lowers...I can feel your heat....your heart beat...so palatable...

I resist the urge to speak....to touch... as I know this apparition is not real...I must be dreaming

then as quickly as the mist appeared...it is gone and I am alone.

A lone tear escapes my eye as I fall back into a deep sleep.

Maybe...

Your not over her.
That is what she repeated when I wouldn't be the woman that she wanted.
Emotionally distant and cold were regular verbs in our discussions.
I will never fall in love with her because my heart belong to my Ex.

Mmmm...



She represented everything I wanted.
Financially stable, grounded in who she was, funny, attractive, smart etc...
but she wasn't her?

Maybe...but...

She was also demanding and insecure and spoiled...lol


So young and old at the same time...

Maybe I'm not over my "Ex"...such a strange word that falls from my lips

or maybe Im not meant to love her...

Maybe she was my transition...

Maybe....

Or maybe she was right all along.

Karma is a bitch.