Fear and Love

Fears float around me, through me.
How can I trust a universe so fickle.
I understand that I have to take it on faith and put fear and anxiety aside to live.

I feel so deeply and hurt so hard.
If I settle into a nice cozy cocoon and allow love to warm me to envelope me...
experience has taught me, rugs do get pulled out from under you.

No one is forever, no one really tells the truth..
You say you love me till something better, newer comes along?

but....

You are always here, no matter what I throw at you...
You have always seen me...seen through my fears and doubts...
I am amazed at your fortitude...stubborness?
Your strength of love...yes....you love me...despite my anxiety...difficulty


What is it you see...that brings you back everytime?
Only you can reach into me...
you change me a littel more...and more...fearing less...trusting as my love deepens, settles.


I stand on a staircase and step on each rung one slow step at a time.
because of you....
There will always be a nagging voice saying ya...but when you get too comfortable, she will leave you.

Maybe...but what if she doesnt?

What if she really really wants you? What if there is happy in love?

When all is said and done and I question to death, love, trust, fear...you are always in front of me..
loving me, your eyes see me and express how deeply you feel for me.

You are the one and that I do trust.